Thursday, May 29, 2008 {}
i tried,
but i'm not strong enough.
i kept everything in me.
and the bottle seem as if it is bottomless.
but i'm wrong.
it has its limit.
and i think things are oozing out from the bottle now.
is filled with good/bad/happy/sad,
guess i need another bottle in me now.
a slightly bigger bottle would be better.
is easy to say,
but is hard to find an outlet.
once empty,
it will be filled up again.
things are getting more complicated
i don't have a choice to choose.
saying NO is not as easy as you think.
i'm forced to, in most of the situation.
i'm left with no choice,
which i the most.
once someone told me,
is hard to understand me cause i keep changing.
with a bottle over-filled in me,
how can i not change?
i wonder.
who will understand me,
when myself don't even fit to say:
is ME.
soemtimes,
i'm even scared to face myself.
i'm one body,
but carrying many different characters/behaviours.
is my mind that is changing.
i'm mentally changing. physical fine.
if the bottle is removed one day,
i hope i still can find back the same old me......