Sunday, October 26, 2008 {}
suddenly felt emo while walking home just now...
is just a usual route that i walked almost everyday.
but is different this time round.
perhaps due to the different atmosphere.
i saw people busy with the wedding preparation,
making sure everything goes right for tmr.
i saw friends saying goodbye at the carpark,
wishing that he would stay even longer.
i heard the sound of those mahjong 'banging' on one another,
gossiping about them.
i heard baby crying,
perhaps wanting mummy to carry while waiting for milk.
i saw some old drunkard sleeping on the bench,
waiting to be awake.
i came across this auntie who is asking for money,
when is already so late
and last but not least,
cockroaches and rats running under my foot finding food.
just a normal and usual route that i took.
but i haven seen anything similar before.
the wind is cold.
too cold for me to take it.
just as a taxi drove past me,
how i wished the passenger was someone i know.
but no.
loneliness attacked me.
and it almost killed me as well.
it have been a long time ever since i felt like that.
too many things kept inside me.
it's hard to say,
cos emo only came at night/ midnight.
so who can i tell when i'm ready to say?
no one.
HA HA!
just a 5-10mins walk to home,
but i realized what i saw is about a human life.
life about A and Z,
when dating, they hoped that time will stop at that sweetest moment and never bide goodbye.
after which is marriage, hoping for the best and the most perfect wedding that they ever had!
baby Y came next, forming a wonderful family.
as the kid Y grew, A and Z grew too...
mahjong was one of the weekend activities whereby friends came and gossiped about others.
one bad habit of Z, he enjoyed drinking with friends. but he's lousy in drinking.
A always had a hard time finding Z.
years passed,
Z passed away, leaving A alone and their kid Y formed his own family.
but economic crisis destroyed Y! the bad debts he owed was a huge amount.
mummy A sold away their only house in order to save Y.
while Y was looking for jobs, mummy A felt that she is a burden to Y.
A left the house and went begging for money.
and years passed...
A went to heaven to accompany Z...
story ended.
i don't know how true it is at the last part.
but aging population was a problem in Singapore.
whatever it is,
it's part and parcel of life.
SHENG (birth) LAO (old) BING (sick) SI (death)
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